never been more disgusted by my body than I am right now.
I feel absolutely horrible even saying that, because I think of people who have worse problems then a few extra pounds..but right now everytime I think about the way my body feels..
I get a sense of dread in my gut that is possibly the worst feeling ever, and I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy.
I hate everyone. I hate myself. Really truly loathe. My body isn't doing what I want it to do. My mind isn't doing what I want it to do. It might as well not even be me. Some other bitch is controlling everything. I hate her.
